Friday, July 16, 2010

wherein i move to wordpress

hello my faithful (or non-existant) blog readers.

thank you for your kind attention in the last 5 years. i am pleased to announce that i have moved, yes finally.

please kindly re-direct yourself to Die Teilzeithippie.

love much! xx

Sunday, June 27, 2010

wherein i realise that i haven't read enough of classics

The rules:

■Bold those you have read.
■Italicize those you have started but haven’t finished.
■Place an asterisk by those you intend to read/finish someday.

1.Pride and Prejudice – Jane Austen
2.The Lord of the Rings – JRR Tolkien
3.Jane Eyre – Charlotte Bronte
4.Harry Potter series – JK Rowling
5.To Kill a Mockingbird – Harper Lee

6.The Bible
7.Wuthering Heights – Emily Bronte
8.Nineteen Eighty Four – George Orwell
9.His Dark Materials – Philip Pullman
10.Great Expectations – Charles Dickens
11.Little Women – Louisa M Alcott
12.Tess of the D’Urbervilles – Thomas Hardy
13.Catch 22 – Joseph Heller*
14.Complete Works of Shakespeare
15.Rebecca – Daphne Du Maurier
16.The Hobbit – JRR Tolkien
17.Birdsong – Sebastian Faulks
18.Catcher in the Rye – JD Salinger
19.The Time Traveller’s Wife – Audrey Niffenegger
20.Middlemarch – George Eliot
21.Gone With The Wind – Margaret Mitchell
22.The Great Gatsby – F Scott Fitzgerald*
23.Bleak House – Charles Dickens
24.War and Peace – Leo Tolstoy
25.The Hitch Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy – Douglas Adams
26.Brideshead Revisited – Evelyn Waugh
27.Crime and Punishment – Fyodor Dostoyevsky
28.Grapes of Wrath – John Steinbeck
29.Alice in Wonderland – Lewis Carroll*
30.The Wind in the Willows – Kenneth Grahame
31.Anna Karenina – Leo Tolstoy
32.David Copperfield – Charles Dickens
33.Chronicles of Narnia – CS Lewis
34.Emma – Jane Austen
35.Persuasion – Jane Austen
36.The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe – CS Lewis
37.The Kite Runner – Khaled Hosseini
38.Captain Corelli’s Mandolin – Louis De Bernieres
39.Memoirs of a Geisha – Arthur Golden
40.Winnie the Pooh – AA Milne
41.Animal Farm – George Orwell
42.The Da Vinci Code – Dan Brown
43.One Hundred Years of Solitude – Gabriel Garcia Marquez
44.A Prayer for Owen Meany – John Irving
45.The Woman in White – Wilkie Collins
46.Anne of Green Gables – LM Montgomery
47.Far From The Madding Crowd – Thomas Hardy
48.The Handmaid’s Tale – Margaret Atwood
49.Lord of the Flies – William Golding
50.Atonement – Ian McEwan
51.Life of Pi – Yann Martel*
52.Dune – Frank Herbert
53.Cold Comfort Farm – Stella Gibbons
54.Sense and Sensibility – Jane Austen
55.A Suitable Boy – Vikram Seth
56.The Shadow of the Wind – Carlos Ruiz Zafon
57.A Tale Of Two Cities – Charles Dickens
58.Brave New World – Aldous Huxley
59.The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time – Mark Haddon
60.Love In The Time Of Cholera – Gabriel Garcia Marquez
61.Of Mice and Men – John Steinbeck
62.Lolita – Vladimir Nabokov
63.The Secret History – Donna Tartt
64.The Lovely Bones – Alice Sebold
65.Count of Monte Cristo – Alexandre Dumas
66.On The Road – Jack Kerouac
67.Jude the Obscure – Thomas Hardy
68.Bridget Jones’s Diary – Helen Fielding*
69.Midnight’s Children – Salman Rushdie
70.Moby Dick – Herman Melville
71.Oliver Twist – Charles Dickens*
72.Dracula – Bram Stoker
73.The Secret Garden – Frances Hodgson Burnett
74.Notes From A Small Island – Bill Bryson*
75.Ulysses – James Joyce*
76.The Bell Jar – Sylvia Plath
77.Swallows and Amazons – Arthur Ransome
78.Germinal – Emile Zola
79.Vanity Fair – William Makepeace Thackeray
80.Possession – AS Byatt
81.A Christmas Carol – Charles Dickens
82.Cloud Atlas – David Mitchell
83.The Color Purple – Alice Walker
84.The Remains of the Day – Kazuo Ishiguro
85.Madame Bovary – Gustave Flaubert
86.A Fine Balance – Rohinton Mistry
87.Charlotte’s Web – EB White
88.The Five People You Meet In Heaven – Mitch Albom

89.Adventures of Sherlock Holmes – Sir Arthur Conan Doyle*
90.The Faraway Tree Collection
91.Heart of Darkness – Joseph Conrad
92.The Little Prince – Antoine De Saint-Exupery*
93.The Wasp Factory – Iain Banks
94.Watership Down – Richard Adams
95.A Confederacy of Dunces – John Kennedy Toole
96.A Town Like Alice – Nevil Shute
97.The Three Musketeers – Alexandre Dumas
98.Hamlet – William Shakespeare
99.Charlie and the Chocolate Factory – Roald Dahl
100.Les Miserables – Victor Hugo*

i need to start reading.

Saturday, June 26, 2010

wherein i divulge a bit more (or perhaps too much) about myself

so being on this path of self discovery, whereby i am almost graduated but not quite yet and where i have actually worked for a year (much longer than what i initially thought i could last given my short attention span) has been pretty exciting thus far. and in the midst of looking for potential career paths and the resume writing, i thought i'd jot down a few of the more memorable things that i've experienced in the last few years.

no, this blog post is not for you, its a reminder for me myself and the narcissistic I. so if you've got better things to do rather than read about the possibly whiny life of a 23 year old singaporean girl then please by all means click on the cross on upper right of your browser. otherwise...

I started living my life when i was 18.

i remember it distinctly, just like the title of this blog, it truely was an epiphany. it was this long conversation with one of my brothers, because i was feeling utterly depressed, that really did it. i wanted to LIVE and break out of my small singaporean world (in case you were wondering, that conversation included discussions about darwanism, atheism, human rights, procrastination and the average human life span, yes very sophie's world, i know)

it kickstarted my need to go out and see the world and to try as many new things as i could. i finally understood the words carpe diem for what they were. and i felt it in my blood. and started to act on my gut instincts. i saved up whatever money i could from working as a sales girl for a trip to visit a dear friend of mine in Melbourne for a couple of days. it was the first time i travelled independently. and coincedentally also my first taste of freedom.

it was like a breath of fresh air.

ever since i knew i had to have more. i miraculously qualified for the National University of Singapore despite my crappy grades and decided to take up german as my third language. till today when people ask me why i took german and not anything else, my best explanation would be to tell you to read freud and understand that our subconcious dictates our irrational actions. or that it was my background in european history and having more interest for the Axis powers of the 2nd world war.

in the next two years, i had been extremely active in hall. i can't emphasize how important those two years were for me. it did wonders for my self confidence for one, and for another helped me find great friends that i know i can count on. but that place was like everything else i didn't like about singapore, it was self-contained to a point that people didn't really seem care much for anything else outside.

and i left for germany. home to beer, sausages and oktoberfest; but more importantly, home, to philosophers like kant, hegel, nietzche and musicians like beethoven and revolutionists like marx, to their dark history, amazing politcal awareness, to free education till university, to a place where people actually wanted to study because they wanted to learn. they wanted to learn, and that was it. no questions asked. from my room/classmates' influence i started to align myself with their work-hard-play-hard philosophy, and from my anthropology lecturer, my interest in sociology. in fact i dont think i've ever like myself more than when i was in germany.

and i guess that explains why i'm here in china, because i know i didn't want to stay in singapore when i had the opportunity to come out. and beijing , for its sheer size, the hustle and bustle of the city and materialism, feels like a rebellious but yet intelligent teenager wanting to prove himself to the world. and that is something i can relate to. why not? it excites the people here, and you feel it from they way they talk about their hopes and futures and from all the hype that she's getting from the world media.

so here i am. shaped from my experiences from the start of my life since the late age of 18. some people have lived all their lives fully from the start, but i'm glad to say that at least better late than never works for me.

this is me - effectively trillingual agnostic, believer in fate, but also in being control of your own destiny. a self proclaimed techie with interests in language and sociology; a idealist turned cynic, lover of life and the one that thinks no time is better than the now. i dont regret protecting my heart with the games i play, or the blunt things i'm capable of saying out of good intentions, nor do i believe that we should ever stop learning. i've follow my gut instincts and i am proud of the person that i am today.

and the cause of all this? getting dumped by a boy. looking back now, it sure as hell is worth it. (: